I used to think that, whatever people say about me is of least importance.
That day, I happened to read an article about reputation.
It says that reputation is the image that you built and project outside of you that people can view as.
I thought it was really a crucial statement that brought me to light somehow.
Which path I'm going to take and what do I need in to get to what I need in future.
For me, explanations are futile.
Your actions, in another words, what you do, influence greatly on your reputation.
The person who stand a higher chance of making a change is the person who is able to influence.
You can't control how people critique you, but instead of being emotionally engaged to what people say, focus on how you can make a change on it, or at least, start off with changing yourself.
Stay focus, open-minded and persevere.
Tuesday, December 14, 2010
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
Wow, another frozen blog.
Hello world.
Busy busy busy.
House moving, study, clinic...
Challenges, but I'm gonna overcome it!!
and, I don't welcome unnecessary people into my life. Especially those that make me an option.
Sometimes you just wish that you're what you thought you are, but it's time for a reality check for you.
Hello world.
Busy busy busy.
House moving, study, clinic...
Challenges, but I'm gonna overcome it!!
and, I don't welcome unnecessary people into my life. Especially those that make me an option.
Sometimes you just wish that you're what you thought you are, but it's time for a reality check for you.
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
No. This is not it. I refuse to give in to give up.
I'll preserve and fight till the end.
I'll not let all these resistances to make me stop. No way.
My feet are nailed to the ground and there's no way any of these obstacles are able to get me off the ground. You'll need to break me to stop me...
That's it.
Sorrow's over, time to buck up and face the music.
Whatever the reason is, I'm gonna fight till the end, until I die.
and Guess what, I'll die another day, it's not my time to go yet..
I'll preserve and fight till the end.
I'll not let all these resistances to make me stop. No way.
My feet are nailed to the ground and there's no way any of these obstacles are able to get me off the ground. You'll need to break me to stop me...
That's it.
Sorrow's over, time to buck up and face the music.
Whatever the reason is, I'm gonna fight till the end, until I die.
and Guess what, I'll die another day, it's not my time to go yet..
Monday, July 26, 2010
3 down, 4 more to go. BRING IT DOWN!!
I have to agree with JP, Chiro students are not allowed to have exams. Exams cause upper cross syndrome and set bad examples to our patients. END OF CASE
I absolutely have no idea of why some of you don't really talk to me anymore, well, talk less maybe.
Busy with works? Studies? Or just simply swaying away from the friendship?
The third one sounds convincing to me.
After hearing about receiving funny emails update in work, I thought, well, it's either my email blocked your email add, or forwarding to me is never one of your options.
Second one sounds convincing to me though.
Perhaps, I'm kinda busy with studies, I admit that I do sound like a stress bee during exams. But, not a single word of encouragement?
Maybe you're too busy with work, or think that I definitely could overcome it on my own, or you just don't bother.
No idea why did I think the first two excuses are a pile of bullocks.
Sorry, I didn't mean to whine about it. For whatever reasons it is, my loath towards fickle minds is getting stronger.
However, I still wish that all of you are well and healthy, and it comes directly from my sincerity.
I have to agree with JP, Chiro students are not allowed to have exams. Exams cause upper cross syndrome and set bad examples to our patients. END OF CASE
I absolutely have no idea of why some of you don't really talk to me anymore, well, talk less maybe.
Busy with works? Studies? Or just simply swaying away from the friendship?
The third one sounds convincing to me.
After hearing about receiving funny emails update in work, I thought, well, it's either my email blocked your email add, or forwarding to me is never one of your options.
Second one sounds convincing to me though.
Perhaps, I'm kinda busy with studies, I admit that I do sound like a stress bee during exams. But, not a single word of encouragement?
Maybe you're too busy with work, or think that I definitely could overcome it on my own, or you just don't bother.
No idea why did I think the first two excuses are a pile of bullocks.
Sorry, I didn't mean to whine about it. For whatever reasons it is, my loath towards fickle minds is getting stronger.
However, I still wish that all of you are well and healthy, and it comes directly from my sincerity.
Saturday, July 17, 2010
Dreadful entrance is over, but 6 more papers to go before I'm done for this trimester.
In 4 more months I'll be treating patient in the clinic (IF I've made through all the exams), WOOHHOOOOO!
Remember when I was in first year waiting impatiently to enter the clinic, and now, impatiently waiting for the day to get out of the clinic and graduate. Ironic but this is how life is.
I'm gonna give myself a break tonight, get wasted!!
Booked Jackson's on Monday and hopefully the food is not as disappointing as some people around me.
Whoops, did I hint something?
Well, a glass of Chauvignon Merlot is more trustworthy than the fickleness of some people whom are so called 'friends'.
They won't betray you, ignore you half way, and gives you all sorts of hard time.
The worst thing about them is, you're giving them an access to your well-guarded fortress, they've got it, ran away with the pass and never come back. Oh, or maybe come back occasionally to look , fool and fiddling around your personal stuff, got bored and walked away. All left in you is messes they've left, you got angry, disappointed but still hope that they come back more often.
Honestly, that's plain stupid, but you just couldn't stop the cycle.
Well, you can, however, change your lock, hire some heavily armed militants and build more fortress. Protect those who are already inside your base, and block those who come-and-go, and if they attempt another break-in or access, break their neck, blast their heads off or release chlorine gas. Make sure they never come back again...
Well, enough for the metaphor.
Impatience well describes me, and one chance is all I can give, I will not ask twice.
So, just leave, or I'll make you if you're testing my patience.
No sorry, no regrets and no string attached.
Don't come and talk to me when you feel like, and ignores me when you don't. I'll kiss your sorry-ass goodbye.
Enough said.
In 4 more months I'll be treating patient in the clinic (IF I've made through all the exams), WOOHHOOOOO!
Remember when I was in first year waiting impatiently to enter the clinic, and now, impatiently waiting for the day to get out of the clinic and graduate. Ironic but this is how life is.
I'm gonna give myself a break tonight, get wasted!!
Booked Jackson's on Monday and hopefully the food is not as disappointing as some people around me.
Whoops, did I hint something?
Well, a glass of Chauvignon Merlot is more trustworthy than the fickleness of some people whom are so called 'friends'.
They won't betray you, ignore you half way, and gives you all sorts of hard time.
The worst thing about them is, you're giving them an access to your well-guarded fortress, they've got it, ran away with the pass and never come back. Oh, or maybe come back occasionally to look , fool and fiddling around your personal stuff, got bored and walked away. All left in you is messes they've left, you got angry, disappointed but still hope that they come back more often.
Honestly, that's plain stupid, but you just couldn't stop the cycle.
Well, you can, however, change your lock, hire some heavily armed militants and build more fortress. Protect those who are already inside your base, and block those who come-and-go, and if they attempt another break-in or access, break their neck, blast their heads off or release chlorine gas. Make sure they never come back again...
Well, enough for the metaphor.
Impatience well describes me, and one chance is all I can give, I will not ask twice.
So, just leave, or I'll make you if you're testing my patience.
No sorry, no regrets and no string attached.
Don't come and talk to me when you feel like, and ignores me when you don't. I'll kiss your sorry-ass goodbye.
Enough said.
Thursday, July 15, 2010
Don't stay - Linkin Park
Sometimes I need to remember just to breathe
Sometimes I need you to stay away from me
Sometimes I’m in disbelief I didn’t know
Somehow I need you to go
Don’t stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
What you were changing me into
Just give me myself back and
Don’t stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
Take all your faithlessness with you
Just give me myself back and
Don’t stay
Sometimes I feel like I trusted you too well
Sometimes I just feel like screaming at myself
Sometimes I’m in disbelief I didn’t know
Somehow I need to be alone
I don’t need you anymore, I don’t want to be ignored
I don’t need one more day of you wasting me away
I don’t need you anymore, I don’t want to be ignored
I don’t need one more day of you wasting me away
With no apologies
Don't stay
Don't stay.
-Linkin park is still the best band ever!!
Sometimes I need to remember just to breathe
Sometimes I need you to stay away from me
Sometimes I’m in disbelief I didn’t know
Somehow I need you to go
Don’t stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
What you were changing me into
Just give me myself back and
Don’t stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
Take all your faithlessness with you
Just give me myself back and
Don’t stay
Sometimes I feel like I trusted you too well
Sometimes I just feel like screaming at myself
Sometimes I’m in disbelief I didn’t know
Somehow I need to be alone
I don’t need you anymore, I don’t want to be ignored
I don’t need one more day of you wasting me away
I don’t need you anymore, I don’t want to be ignored
I don’t need one more day of you wasting me away
With no apologies
Don't stay
Don't stay.
-Linkin park is still the best band ever!!
Monday, July 12, 2010
World cup fever is officially over.
Glad that Spain got Holland beaten up!!!
Admit it, you just suck big time, Netherlands team.
Cheating, diving, rough plays... what else.
Now you can kiss the Gold Cup ass goodbye!!!
Anyway, wicked weeks ahead.
Assignments, laundry, exams preparations are piling up and I'll be drowned, very soon.
Talking about a particular unit,
darn lecturer is giving me a hard time!
I don't bloody have time to deal with the absurdity of him..
Who bloody knows an elevated ESR could lead us into thinking of Infectious spondylitis as our primary diagnosis WITHOUT even giving us any other clues i.e blood tests results??
and Why the hell what Souza thinks matter in our differentials when you're supposed to implant that kinda thought process in your lectures and you didn't??
Thank you so much for all the damages that you've caused in this unit.
and your unit review is equivocal to the marks that you've given me, as an expression of my gratitude towards you.
GPS was so much better....
Okay, early clinic shift tomorrow and I shall stop here for tonight.
Glad that Spain got Holland beaten up!!!
Admit it, you just suck big time, Netherlands team.
Cheating, diving, rough plays... what else.
Now you can kiss the Gold Cup ass goodbye!!!
Anyway, wicked weeks ahead.
Assignments, laundry, exams preparations are piling up and I'll be drowned, very soon.
Talking about a particular unit,
darn lecturer is giving me a hard time!
I don't bloody have time to deal with the absurdity of him..
Who bloody knows an elevated ESR could lead us into thinking of Infectious spondylitis as our primary diagnosis WITHOUT even giving us any other clues i.e blood tests results??
and Why the hell what Souza thinks matter in our differentials when you're supposed to implant that kinda thought process in your lectures and you didn't??
Thank you so much for all the damages that you've caused in this unit.
and your unit review is equivocal to the marks that you've given me, as an expression of my gratitude towards you.
GPS was so much better....
Okay, early clinic shift tomorrow and I shall stop here for tonight.
Sunday, June 13, 2010
24 degrees for winter is TOO MUCH. Gawd!
You're not even allowed to reach 20....
Ok, absolutely no idea of what's wrong with me complaining about the weather.
I always do that, for goodness sake, I shouldn't be.
Anyway,
FUCKERS PLEASE FUCK OFF, and if you like to ignore me, then FUCK OFFFFFF!!!!!!!!!!!
and Jealous-iers, FUCK OFFFFF TOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
It ticks me off a lot, so, please do me a good deed, GO FUCK YOURSELVES!
FUH... less angry now.
Shut up if you do not understand, 'cause I don't need your opinions.
I need a sandbag... or a really huge Squeeze Ball.
OK!
Shall stop now, 5 minutes is beyond enough for my anger management.
SHall refrain myself from cursing too much, I want my future patients to see me as a prude. MUAHAHHAHAH!
You're not even allowed to reach 20....
Ok, absolutely no idea of what's wrong with me complaining about the weather.
I always do that, for goodness sake, I shouldn't be.
Anyway,
FUCKERS PLEASE FUCK OFF, and if you like to ignore me, then FUCK OFFFFFF!!!!!!!!!!!
and Jealous-iers, FUCK OFFFFF TOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
It ticks me off a lot, so, please do me a good deed, GO FUCK YOURSELVES!
FUH... less angry now.
Shut up if you do not understand, 'cause I don't need your opinions.
I need a sandbag... or a really huge Squeeze Ball.
OK!
Shall stop now, 5 minutes is beyond enough for my anger management.
SHall refrain myself from cursing too much, I want my future patients to see me as a prude. MUAHAHHAHAH!
Monday, June 07, 2010
I'm here sincerely, would like to express my apology to Miss Bangla Tan for the random WOOHOOO title. SORRRY AHHHHHHH....... hahahaha
Foundation day public holiday(not exactly a holiday for uni students) has given me a great opportunity to laze around, doing absolutely nothing apart from sleeping. Love it. I'm just preparing myself to deal with the hectic weeks...
No, not gonna think about it for now. Any bloody Uni matter, just leave me alone for a day. I need a weekend off...
and when I say that, MY BLOODY LONG WEEKEND IS COMING TO END. DAMN IT.
Ah well, shouldn't have rested too much actually. Life's a constant battle, that you either take it or leave it.
I am so frickin' hungry right now, all I am thinking now is FOOD! Arrggghhh..
Me and swan had a conversation about food few days ago. I was saying, a few of us are good dining buddies because we have very similar tastes. We probably agree most of the time on tastiness of our foods, good ones, and bad ones. Bare in mind that we are not really that picky, and we are not those type of people that see expensive food as NICE as they look.
Parents used to force me to eat food that I used to dislike, and I don't see a problem with that. They taught me how to be less picky, which is a good thing, don't you think so?
A very complicated dinner
Foundation day public holiday(not exactly a holiday for uni students) has given me a great opportunity to laze around, doing absolutely nothing apart from sleeping. Love it. I'm just preparing myself to deal with the hectic weeks...
No, not gonna think about it for now. Any bloody Uni matter, just leave me alone for a day. I need a weekend off...
and when I say that, MY BLOODY LONG WEEKEND IS COMING TO END. DAMN IT.
Ah well, shouldn't have rested too much actually. Life's a constant battle, that you either take it or leave it.
I am so frickin' hungry right now, all I am thinking now is FOOD! Arrggghhh..
Me and swan had a conversation about food few days ago. I was saying, a few of us are good dining buddies because we have very similar tastes. We probably agree most of the time on tastiness of our foods, good ones, and bad ones. Bare in mind that we are not really that picky, and we are not those type of people that see expensive food as NICE as they look.
Parents used to force me to eat food that I used to dislike, and I don't see a problem with that. They taught me how to be less picky, which is a good thing, don't you think so?
A very complicated dinner
Thursday, June 03, 2010
Saturday, May 01, 2010
I dislike people asking me questions in an interrogating way.
I don't want to explain when I DON'T WANT TO.
Save your petty 'lectures' or so called rational thinking when I was trying to joke a whine.
I grew old enough to know what is rational and what is not, and as far as I can see, you're not more rational than I do.
Your petty judgmental assumption on me is making me sick.
Non-constructive arguments keep your life going, I know.
Well good for you, 'cause what you think does not really bother me anymore even if you know it agitates me. Instead of squeezing your neck to shut you up, I prefer letting karma to take its course while you blithely unaware of the fact that I bother no more.
Cutting down MSN is however, a good idea.
'Don't try to tell me what to do, don't try to tell me what to say, better off that way.' -Avril Lavigne
Anyway, two visitors are coming on separate times this month. =)
I love visitors...
and PEOPLE, I'm heading back to KK in August. PREPARE YOURSELVES, POLOPAOS!!!!!
Taiwan trip has also been confirmed, looking forward for the food perhaps.
I don't want to explain when I DON'T WANT TO.
Save your petty 'lectures' or so called rational thinking when I was trying to joke a whine.
I grew old enough to know what is rational and what is not, and as far as I can see, you're not more rational than I do.
Your petty judgmental assumption on me is making me sick.
Non-constructive arguments keep your life going, I know.
Well good for you, 'cause what you think does not really bother me anymore even if you know it agitates me. Instead of squeezing your neck to shut you up, I prefer letting karma to take its course while you blithely unaware of the fact that I bother no more.
Cutting down MSN is however, a good idea.
'Don't try to tell me what to do, don't try to tell me what to say, better off that way.' -Avril Lavigne
Anyway, two visitors are coming on separate times this month. =)
I love visitors...
and PEOPLE, I'm heading back to KK in August. PREPARE YOURSELVES, POLOPAOS!!!!!
Taiwan trip has also been confirmed, looking forward for the food perhaps.
Thursday, April 08, 2010
Monday, April 05, 2010
It is done.
I could not believe myself. Why did I even attempt to save the situation? What am I hoping for? Or I just wanna blindly take the blames when I know, there isn't any benefit of me doing that... It did not make any sense to me.
And..... I am having exams too. Why me?
But, it is done.
Rehab doesn't make any sense to me too, but I am hoping for the best.
It's when I see, the anticipated ugly sides, as expected.
I could not believe myself. Why did I even attempt to save the situation? What am I hoping for? Or I just wanna blindly take the blames when I know, there isn't any benefit of me doing that... It did not make any sense to me.
And..... I am having exams too. Why me?
But, it is done.
Rehab doesn't make any sense to me too, but I am hoping for the best.
It's when I see, the anticipated ugly sides, as expected.
Saturday, April 03, 2010
One of the worst week ever, well, literally.
Exams are here, conflict becomes profound, research project unsettled.... what's more?
Almost to the point that, right in front of their faces, and tell them to fuck off! NO matter how wrathful I am, there's not a single chance that I should release it.
Believe me, it's really unhealthy, but seriously, what can you do when the supports you get is minimal at this very moment. I don't need someone to listen to me and thinks that I am only complaining. I just want someone to know that, I'm not right at lots of the times, but at least this time, I don't think I'm entirely wrong.
Say sorry when you have to... I mean it. I will be waiting for it until I'm fed up, which is very soon.
I really hope that this cloud of moodiness would just disperse by itself...
Suck it up, and the last thing I need is..... confrontation.
This song brought me to tears and back from abyss.
Exams are here, conflict becomes profound, research project unsettled.... what's more?
Almost to the point that, right in front of their faces, and tell them to fuck off! NO matter how wrathful I am, there's not a single chance that I should release it.
Believe me, it's really unhealthy, but seriously, what can you do when the supports you get is minimal at this very moment. I don't need someone to listen to me and thinks that I am only complaining. I just want someone to know that, I'm not right at lots of the times, but at least this time, I don't think I'm entirely wrong.
Say sorry when you have to... I mean it. I will be waiting for it until I'm fed up, which is very soon.
I really hope that this cloud of moodiness would just disperse by itself...
Suck it up, and the last thing I need is..... confrontation.
This song brought me to tears and back from abyss.
Friday, March 26, 2010
Sunday, March 07, 2010
NOOOOOO, I don't wanna study!!!!!!!!
IN your life time, 1/3 of them like you, 1/3 hate you and 1/3 of them has nothing much to do with you...
And I will still pick up the lesson of smiling in front of those who dislike you, badmouthed about you, and misinterpreted of who you really are. Please do the same to me.... i beg you!
I'll be grateful of either the 1/3 likers, or the 1/3 haters, but it's the likers that I appreciate in the end.
I DON'T WANNA STUDYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!
IN your life time, 1/3 of them like you, 1/3 hate you and 1/3 of them has nothing much to do with you...
And I will still pick up the lesson of smiling in front of those who dislike you, badmouthed about you, and misinterpreted of who you really are. Please do the same to me.... i beg you!
I'll be grateful of either the 1/3 likers, or the 1/3 haters, but it's the likers that I appreciate in the end.
I DON'T WANNA STUDYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!
Saturday, March 06, 2010
Definitely would love to play mahjong day and night everyday..
Oh wait, I'm a mahjong addict! DAMN, when did it happen?
I need to check into rehab...
"Hi, my name is Amos, and I'm a mahjong-olic. I wake up playing mahjong and I sleep with mahjong dreams. I have Fat Choi as my breakfast, and Hong Zhong as my dinner. I 'Pong' all my assignments and I 'Shang' exams away. I see all trees as bamboos and all flowers as 2 tais(yi tai hua). If I don't see any flowers, I think I'm on my way to Ping Hu..... and I think I need help."
CAN ANYONE JUST LET ME 'ZI MO' ONE MORE TIME?????
Anyway,
Back to life.
An exam on Monday and guess what, I have less than 48 hours to digest all these notes that I've neglected since ice age.
To be frank, I'm scared 'cause I'm losing faith.
I couldn't even feel the hype of getting an adjustment.
I wasn't even sure that I was genuinely delighted when I've found my style of adjusting...
Please take that struggle away from me, I would rather feel excited about getting something that I ought to get than feeling mediocre of things that I've already achieved, well, almost...
Allan said, 'We have to go through 5 years of hardcore studying, specializing, and practicing, but not enough to make ourselves significant in the so called mainstream.'
Well said, Allan, but we have made our choice.
I am still hoping for the best.....
Grand round was motivating however...
'All of you here are spine experts, if you don't bloody do it, who the hell is going to do it?' - Dr GPS 2010.
Oh wait, I'm a mahjong addict! DAMN, when did it happen?
I need to check into rehab...
"Hi, my name is Amos, and I'm a mahjong-olic. I wake up playing mahjong and I sleep with mahjong dreams. I have Fat Choi as my breakfast, and Hong Zhong as my dinner. I 'Pong' all my assignments and I 'Shang' exams away. I see all trees as bamboos and all flowers as 2 tais(yi tai hua). If I don't see any flowers, I think I'm on my way to Ping Hu..... and I think I need help."
CAN ANYONE JUST LET ME 'ZI MO' ONE MORE TIME?????
Anyway,
Back to life.
An exam on Monday and guess what, I have less than 48 hours to digest all these notes that I've neglected since ice age.
To be frank, I'm scared 'cause I'm losing faith.
I couldn't even feel the hype of getting an adjustment.
I wasn't even sure that I was genuinely delighted when I've found my style of adjusting...
Please take that struggle away from me, I would rather feel excited about getting something that I ought to get than feeling mediocre of things that I've already achieved, well, almost...
Allan said, 'We have to go through 5 years of hardcore studying, specializing, and practicing, but not enough to make ourselves significant in the so called mainstream.'
Well said, Allan, but we have made our choice.
I am still hoping for the best.....
Grand round was motivating however...
'All of you here are spine experts, if you don't bloody do it, who the hell is going to do it?' - Dr GPS 2010.
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
1, I'm NOT emo. Define EMO before assuming
2, I'm NOT defensive. I'm just saying what I think is true.
3, I'm NOT a weakling. I don't keep quiet when my life is being threaten, and definitely would KILL to survive. IN another word, I'm CAPABLE of murdering if I have to.
4, I don't DO facial everyday! and I don't have a basket full of FACIAL products. IN fact, I DON"T EVEN KNOW HOW TO DO A PROPER FACIAL.
5, I'm NOT majoring in MASSAGE. NOT EVEN near to it. I'm doing Chiropractic. I treat Backpain, headaches, myofascial problems, and tonnes of other stuff. IN another words, I am an Alternative Medical Doctor!
6, I'm NOT anorexic! I have unusual high metabolism rate which explains why gaining weight is so fuckin difficult for me.
7, I will NOT keep quiet when you said something offensive and untrue about me, and i DON'T Fucking care who you are, I would still stand firm on myself and get you off the fuck from the chair. I mean it...
and the list goes on......
2, I'm NOT defensive. I'm just saying what I think is true.
3, I'm NOT a weakling. I don't keep quiet when my life is being threaten, and definitely would KILL to survive. IN another word, I'm CAPABLE of murdering if I have to.
4, I don't DO facial everyday! and I don't have a basket full of FACIAL products. IN fact, I DON"T EVEN KNOW HOW TO DO A PROPER FACIAL.
5, I'm NOT majoring in MASSAGE. NOT EVEN near to it. I'm doing Chiropractic. I treat Backpain, headaches, myofascial problems, and tonnes of other stuff. IN another words, I am an Alternative Medical Doctor!
6, I'm NOT anorexic! I have unusual high metabolism rate which explains why gaining weight is so fuckin difficult for me.
7, I will NOT keep quiet when you said something offensive and untrue about me, and i DON'T Fucking care who you are, I would still stand firm on myself and get you off the fuck from the chair. I mean it...
and the list goes on......
Saturday, February 20, 2010
Sometimes,
I just can't live up to the expectation that people perceive in me.
Sometimes,
I feel so helpless about the wrong impression that I gave to people.
Sometimes,
I just want to confront them and say, 'No, I am not like that!'
Sometimes,
I just think that it would be a waste of time for such worthless confrontation.
Sometimes,
I couldn't bother much about what people said about me that is not entirely true.
Sometimes,
I'm just sick of people for disrespecting me, for such disrespect is conveyed in a despicable manner.
Sometimes,
people just don't understand.........
I just can't live up to the expectation that people perceive in me.
Sometimes,
I feel so helpless about the wrong impression that I gave to people.
Sometimes,
I just want to confront them and say, 'No, I am not like that!'
Sometimes,
I just think that it would be a waste of time for such worthless confrontation.
Sometimes,
I couldn't bother much about what people said about me that is not entirely true.
Sometimes,
I'm just sick of people for disrespecting me, for such disrespect is conveyed in a despicable manner.
Sometimes,
people just don't understand.........
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
Flipping through the Differential Diagnosis notes
"This unit is keeping me a lil' motivated, at least", I thought.
It's hard I know,
to go through all these uncertainties and confusions.
I am always wondering,
whether this is a turning point for stronger enthusiasm
or a beginning of a dreadful journey.
Sigh
the faith I have is gradually fading.
I don't even know what is good for me, and to my patients.
I don't even know I'm going to practice what I 'preach'.
Tell me
how to get over with this loose end.
Overwhelmed with anxiety
I do not know anymore,
whether I have chosen the right path.
Oh Lord
please lead me.
"This unit is keeping me a lil' motivated, at least", I thought.
It's hard I know,
to go through all these uncertainties and confusions.
I am always wondering,
whether this is a turning point for stronger enthusiasm
or a beginning of a dreadful journey.
Sigh
the faith I have is gradually fading.
I don't even know what is good for me, and to my patients.
I don't even know I'm going to practice what I 'preach'.
Tell me
how to get over with this loose end.
Overwhelmed with anxiety
I do not know anymore,
whether I have chosen the right path.
Oh Lord
please lead me.
Monday, February 15, 2010
Alarm buzzed around 8am
I dragged myself out of the bed, getting ready for uni.
'Is it Monday already?', I questioned.
Took a shower reluctantly,
and as usual, engaged myself into deep thoughts in my shower.
Picked a red polo shirt from the wardrobe
and off I go.... not to house visiting, but to uni.
The hot and humid outdoor did not make my day any better
Arrived Uni, delighted to see reds as promised.
'Why is everyone wearing red?', Dr Beck wondered
Cheerfully, we answered, 'It's Chinese New Year!!!!'....
Done with uni, came home and as expected,
nobody's home.
Took a nap
and continue on with exam revision.
I was thinking, 'Great, an exam on third day of CNY.'
Feel like I'm on a million dollars business deal, that I had to give up my CNY.
I dragged myself out of the bed, getting ready for uni.
'Is it Monday already?', I questioned.
Took a shower reluctantly,
and as usual, engaged myself into deep thoughts in my shower.
Picked a red polo shirt from the wardrobe
and off I go.... not to house visiting, but to uni.
The hot and humid outdoor did not make my day any better
Arrived Uni, delighted to see reds as promised.
'Why is everyone wearing red?', Dr Beck wondered
Cheerfully, we answered, 'It's Chinese New Year!!!!'....
Done with uni, came home and as expected,
nobody's home.
Took a nap
and continue on with exam revision.
I was thinking, 'Great, an exam on third day of CNY.'
Feel like I'm on a million dollars business deal, that I had to give up my CNY.
Sunday, February 14, 2010
I've decided to switch back to blogspot. All the annoying ads and settings in xanga sorta pissed me off!!!!
Anyway, Greeting from southern hemisphere to all the chinese out there
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!
However, I'm stuck here in Perth with uni, and worst of all, exams and assignments that are DUE on CNY. Wow, thanks for that! The very first day of new year, I had to hide myself at home (partially)and frickin' study. HOW SAD WAS THAT!????! Can life gets any worst than that? Well, tell me about it.
If anyone is up to any books burning conventions, count me in immediately.
I shouldn't be complaining that much since I DID NOT STUDY MOST OF THE TIME REALLY... We stayed up to 430am last night for RAMI and feeling absolute guiltless about it.
It wasn't that bad since most of da buddies are here and Swan's mum's homecook food for our reunion dinner. YUMMY~~~~
Well, there goes my CNY weekend.
and..... Valentine's day?? What's that???? I'm expecting my facebook to be filled with sappy 'stuff'. Not that I'm jealous but some people just can't keep it to themselves, really. What can I say, it's just a choice of life... which is, so not me! So, Valentine's day....NOT! I strongly prefer CNY celebration, it means more to me. I don't wanna spend my first day of CNY on ONE SINGLE PERSON, at all. Loner, selfish, wait-til-you-get-it or whatever fuck terms you refer to me, I don't give a fuck...
Anyway, Greeting from southern hemisphere to all the chinese out there
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!
However, I'm stuck here in Perth with uni, and worst of all, exams and assignments that are DUE on CNY. Wow, thanks for that! The very first day of new year, I had to hide myself at home (partially)and frickin' study. HOW SAD WAS THAT!????! Can life gets any worst than that? Well, tell me about it.
If anyone is up to any books burning conventions, count me in immediately.
I shouldn't be complaining that much since I DID NOT STUDY MOST OF THE TIME REALLY... We stayed up to 430am last night for RAMI and feeling absolute guiltless about it.
It wasn't that bad since most of da buddies are here and Swan's mum's homecook food for our reunion dinner. YUMMY~~~~
Well, there goes my CNY weekend.
and..... Valentine's day?? What's that???? I'm expecting my facebook to be filled with sappy 'stuff'. Not that I'm jealous but some people just can't keep it to themselves, really. What can I say, it's just a choice of life... which is, so not me! So, Valentine's day....NOT! I strongly prefer CNY celebration, it means more to me. I don't wanna spend my first day of CNY on ONE SINGLE PERSON, at all. Loner, selfish, wait-til-you-get-it or whatever fuck terms you refer to me, I don't give a fuck...
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