Cannot resolve, moving out...


Since there is no solution for the rent problem, i will b moving out in 2 days, or else i will be in deep shit. Im tired of the mentality that everything is smooth all the way thru... when it is not. Will be packing these few days.. God, just lead me, im listening and im looking at it.

Exam finished? Excited? Not really...


Just finished my final paper today. Happy about it? Excited about holiday? Guess what... not at all. Sigh... Stil kinda worrying about the rent. Well, if my housemate didn't reply me by this saturday, then im moving out by Sunday. Im really praying hard that God shows me the way.. I should lift all my burdens to Him. It's hard, I know. But i believe He always allows me to sail through all the problems... Why not i really lift it up to Him?

In the other hand, if contract is done but you didnt fulfill it, then what for? Giving others false hope? Chaotic planning? That's it man, I'm going to bleach the contract really soon.

A fairly odd day in Perth

Finished my CHI109 practical paper yesterday, it was easier than what i expected. Next up is the theory paper, which is tomorrow. Last one but major one..

Yesterday were supposed to be another ordinary day, a usual stressful exam day. Somehow, it wasn't as usual as it was supposed to be... On the way to Pete's house, I was a bit gloomy, flashing back of how i missed two questions in the prac exam and the fricking hot weather drove me insane. When i was about to start complaing, 940 bus stopped just in front of me, I was like ' OMG, i nearly missed it!' Thank God the driver stopped. Stepping into the bus, and the bus driver said 'Well, fortunately i saw your legs swinging from the bus stop, or else you would have missed it', and he gave me a smile. Tell you what, it's really amazing of how a smile can turn your day around! At least when i go back to Malaysia, i will bring back the courtesy that Aussie taught me. The kind of manner that everyone should have.

A lot came to my mind during the bus ride. I always feel so grateful that God brought me here. If it wasn't Him, where would I be now? Every Friday night, we will pass by the city to reach church. I will always gaze out of da window and take a good look at the city. The lights, the buildings.... the view. It's not the best view but it's fascinating. It never stop reminding me about my blessings. It never did... If we are not grateful of what we have now, then why God not switching your position to those living in poverty? Those who are having trouble to even feed themselves with one meal per few days. Children who don't even know what is education, what is clean water, what is delicious...

The previous 3rd years from my course had organized a trip to a rural area, i forgot what is that place called. Probably in southern Indonesia. Im planning to take part as well.. well, in 3rd year. The aim of the trip is to deepen our understanding of chiropractic. It's about health and patients, it's not about the money. This is what the professors told us. God has confirmed me that i have taken the right course as it matches one of my targets.

Well, going back in 2 more weeks!!!! I don't think KK has changed much.. Haha!

Stresssss

Few more days to my first paper, Vet108, which im seriously panic about!! Practically im memorizing every single bone and muscle in the dog! -___-|| Why dog?? Ugh... i reallly afraid that I can't do well. I gotta start my Cell bio soon too... Sigh! What the heck!?! @_@

This song rox!

Superwoman - 曹格

Early in the morning, I put breakfast at your table
一夜都没睡但我 不曾如此清醒
我早餐准备了你 爱吃的东西
这次换我等你被咖啡 的香味叫醒

想要找回每天早晨 对我微笑着的你
还能够 做些什么来代替我的歉意
总是望着我小心翼翼 顺着我呼吸
而我竟然理所当然 让你筋疲力尽

You were my superwoman
安静得在身边 无条件给我 梦寐以求的温柔
BUt i am only human
我怎么不懂你多寂寞 承认我犯了错 不能失去你

You fought your way to the rush hour, try to make it home just for me
月光下靠着彼此 只求夜长一点
有多久没好好看你 只是认定了我
无论在什么时候 回头 都有你的笑容

是我忽略了你也会有 想哭的感觉
没有一种付出应该永远心甘情愿
再给被宠坏的男人最后一次机会
换我忍耐换我等待 不要真的弃权

(baby~) 是我把爱想得太简单
以为只要我存在就能让你取暖
心里唯一的superwoman没有人能代替
不能想象更不能原谅这样把爱化成 代替 灰烬