Can't believe it's been 8 months since I last updated.
I was reading the previous posts and thought, " I think I'm quite far from where I was before".
I hope this is a part of growing.
Have no idea why did I whine so much.

Long awaited holiday! YEAY!
How could I be so excited about it? Well, because I haven't had ANY holiday for 8 months and I think it's about time! It's very very very crucial to take a break every now and then.

I used to think that, whatever people say about me is of least importance.
That day, I happened to read an article about reputation.
It says that reputation is the image that you built and project outside of you that people can view as.
I thought it was really a crucial statement that brought me to light somehow.
Which path I'm going to take and what do I need in to get to what I need in future.
For me, explanations are futile.
Your actions, in another words, what you do, influence greatly on your reputation.
The person who stand a higher chance of making a change is the person who is able to influence.

You can't control how people critique you, but instead of being emotionally engaged to what people say, focus on how you can make a change on it, or at least, start off with changing yourself.

Stay focus, open-minded and persevere.

Wow, another frozen blog.

Hello world.

Busy busy busy.

House moving, study, clinic...

Challenges, but I'm gonna overcome it!!

and, I don't welcome unnecessary people into my life. Especially those that make me an option.
Sometimes you just wish that you're what you thought you are, but it's time for a reality check for you.

No. This is not it. I refuse to give in to give up.
I'll preserve and fight till the end.
I'll not let all these resistances to make me stop. No way.
My feet are nailed to the ground and there's no way any of these obstacles are able to get me off the ground. You'll need to break me to stop me...

That's it.
Sorrow's over, time to buck up and face the music.
Whatever the reason is, I'm gonna fight till the end, until I die.
and Guess what, I'll die another day, it's not my time to go yet..

3 down, 4 more to go. BRING IT DOWN!!
I have to agree with JP, Chiro students are not allowed to have exams. Exams cause upper cross syndrome and set bad examples to our patients. END OF CASE

I absolutely have no idea of why some of you don't really talk to me anymore, well, talk less maybe.
Busy with works? Studies? Or just simply swaying away from the friendship?
The third one sounds convincing to me.
After hearing about receiving funny emails update in work, I thought, well, it's either my email blocked your email add, or forwarding to me is never one of your options.
Second one sounds convincing to me though.
Perhaps, I'm kinda busy with studies, I admit that I do sound like a stress bee during exams. But, not a single word of encouragement?
Maybe you're too busy with work, or think that I definitely could overcome it on my own, or you just don't bother.
No idea why did I think the first two excuses are a pile of bullocks.

Sorry, I didn't mean to whine about it. For whatever reasons it is, my loath towards fickle minds is getting stronger.
However, I still wish that all of you are well and healthy, and it comes directly from my sincerity.

Dreadful entrance is over, but 6 more papers to go before I'm done for this trimester.
In 4 more months I'll be treating patient in the clinic (IF I've made through all the exams), WOOHHOOOOO!
Remember when I was in first year waiting impatiently to enter the clinic, and now, impatiently waiting for the day to get out of the clinic and graduate. Ironic but this is how life is.

I'm gonna give myself a break tonight, get wasted!!
Booked Jackson's on Monday and hopefully the food is not as disappointing as some people around me.
Whoops, did I hint something?
Well, a glass of Chauvignon Merlot is more trustworthy than the fickleness of some people whom are so called 'friends'.
They won't betray you, ignore you half way, and gives you all sorts of hard time.
The worst thing about them is, you're giving them an access to your well-guarded fortress, they've got it, ran away with the pass and never come back. Oh, or maybe come back occasionally to look , fool and fiddling around your personal stuff, got bored and walked away. All left in you is messes they've left, you got angry, disappointed but still hope that they come back more often.
Honestly, that's plain stupid, but you just couldn't stop the cycle.
Well, you can, however, change your lock, hire some heavily armed militants and build more fortress. Protect those who are already inside your base, and block those who come-and-go, and if they attempt another break-in or access, break their neck, blast their heads off or release chlorine gas. Make sure they never come back again...

Well, enough for the metaphor.
Impatience well describes me, and one chance is all I can give, I will not ask twice.
So, just leave, or I'll make you if you're testing my patience.
No sorry, no regrets and no string attached.
Don't come and talk to me when you feel like, and ignores me when you don't. I'll kiss your sorry-ass goodbye.
Enough said.

Don't stay - Linkin Park

Sometimes I need to remember just to breathe
Sometimes I need you to stay away from me
Sometimes I’m in disbelief I didn’t know
Somehow I need you to go

Don’t stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
What you were changing me into
Just give me myself back and
Don’t stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
Take all your faithlessness with you
Just give me myself back and
Don’t stay

Sometimes I feel like I trusted you too well
Sometimes I just feel like screaming at myself
Sometimes I’m in disbelief I didn’t know
Somehow I need to be alone

I don’t need you anymore, I don’t want to be ignored
I don’t need one more day of you wasting me away
I don’t need you anymore, I don’t want to be ignored
I don’t need one more day of you wasting me away

With no apologies

Don't stay

Don't stay.

-Linkin park is still the best band ever!!